The bidders would like
an appraisal
from you
of the worth of your life
in numerical value
for buying and selling and handing out medals
to give to the winners.
The most productive.
The progressive men
Who migrate linearly
from point A to point B,
and gee, oh my, that’s really something.
To possess the ability of moving things
while remaining completely still in your soul.
Remember
the loose, unfettered moments
that have left you in vague and woebegone wake?
They never fit. They never fit,
like a shoe that you forced onto you,
anyway,
just in case it might ever fit.
This is all very sad, what I’m
saying to you.
And worthless, and cheapened still, by the second.
But the truth comes out like crazy-talk.
Like drunken, babbling brook of junk.
And we need
to delegitimize reference point,
which upholds illusion of empty hollow,
a standard to live by
of racing-track wallowing:
first-second-third
And strapped into context,
which I try so to disentangle self.
God, give me the strength
to unremember.
So I will not remember
the things that are better
and can feel that impending conditions are good.
They would be good, and they could be good,
if I just let them be,
doing justice to me.
But time has a diminutive effect on enthusiasm.
And contextures of things
are life-sentence prison-terms
pending and all-enveloping, evil-like.
I will not yield
to your make-off bake-off
and judicious stake-off allotment of claims
and settlements of freedom.
Your freedom is a succubus.
Your goodness is my bane.
Your genius is banal and hackneyed and lame.
And you will go on living, life-like,
And I will keep on
trying, life-like almost in moments
of extreme animation / re-calcitration
which I’m hesitant of
because I’m on a crazy-course tangent
that no one will obviously understand
but it has to be
it has to be
it has to be
it has to be
it has to be this way or that.
The clocks must all the smashed eventually.
-clw
12-27-04
copyright: C. Ward 2016
this is very genuine and wonderful expression. im going to read it many times. i need to start posting mine like you have your “Posted in”….activist art, anarchism…
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That’s what I meant by tags but it’s not really tags there’s a separate section for tags I don’t know what this is called but yes you should do that. That’s how people follow me. I also put philosophy and psychology and things like that.
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